Posted by Lila on January 6th, 2006
Yay! I won my online chess game with Mistress Yoko!
Of course, winning one little chess game isn’t much to brag about, since it isn’t really any consolation for how thoroughly Mistress Yoko has triumphed over me, lorded it over me, and humiliated me over the course of our friendship so far! It’s not like I’ll ever be able to come close to evening the score… even if she frees me from my slavery, she and I will both always know that she’s still permanently “one up†on me (or “many up†on me)! And I doubt she’ll ever let me forget it!
But it still feels good to have finally beaten her at something… I’ve never won against her at anything before!
And I got to take 50 MDPs off my total for winning, which brings me down to an even 1000.
Now we’re playing Go. Just a small 9×9 board at first, instead of the full-size 19×19 board. We’re both still learning how to play, though she’s played a little bit in the past and I’ve just been giving myself a crash course since she suggested that we try it after the chess game.
100 MDPs off my total if I win the Go game; 36 spankings for me if I lose. I’m not too happy about the prospect of getting spanked for losing, but those are actually pretty generous stakes, considering that I have no choice but to accept whatever stakes it pleases Mistress Yoko to declare.
Damn it, how unbelievably humiliating to find myself actually feeling grateful for such little gestures of “generosity†from her! I hate that!
She says that she’s guessing that the game will probably end around her birthday, so the idea behind the 36 spankings is that if I lose, I’ll have to receive her birthday spanking! Having to be spanked for her birthday amusement is definitely a humiliation I don’t want to endure, so you can bet I’ll be working really hard to get good at Go fast!
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Posted by Lila on January 3rd, 2006
Happy New Year!
Smoking update: Day 12 since my final cigarette! Climbing the walls… but not cheating, now that I know just how bad the penalty for disobedience can be. Nicotene gum. Nicotene patches. Chewing up my pens.
Haircut update: Getting used to it. I’ve discovered one good thing about the new haircut: it keeps my hair out of my face, so I don’t chew on it during my nic fits.
Story Contest update: Received one very cute and fun story by email on December 17 from a reader who asked to remain anonymous for now. Mistress Yoko said during our Scrabble game last Tuesday that she was going to work on a story for me. Still hoping for more, once everyone’s settled down from the holiday craziness.
Chess update: Mistress Yoko and I are still on our first game, making a couple of moves a day. I’m winning! Not much of a consolation for her total victory over me in everything else but chess, but at least I finally have a way of reducing my MDPs.
New Year’s Resolutions:
1. Work off all my MDPs. I don’t know if it’s really possible to work them all off, since it’s always Mistress Yoko’s decision how many I can work off by doing what… I guess she won’t let me work them all off until she’s good and ready to release me from my slavery, and who knows when that will be… she says she’ll free me someday, but she sure doesn’t talk about it like it’s happening soon! But anyway, if I don’t earn my freedom this year, it won’t be for lack of trying! Time to swallow my pride and be a well-behaved slave, and pray that eventually Mistress Yoko decides I really have learned all the lessons she thinks I need to…
2. Go on a zen meditation retreat. Does that surprise you? Does it sound unlike me? Actually, it’s something I’ve been interested in doing for a few years now. Know why I never did it before? Because you can’t smoke at those retreats! I’ve always chickened out when it came time to sign up for one, thinking about how hard it would be to go for a week or so without a cigarette. But now I’ve gone almost two weeks without a cigarette… so now I don’t have an excuse!
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